Relief after trauma

This photo means so much to me.

Before my csection I said to my midwife Sarah that I’m going to plan that he will be sick like River. He was going to be taken away from me and I won’t be able to hold him. I said I’d rather prepare for that then not.

Right before this picture was taken Sarah came to me with Storm.

Me in shock : “really?”

Sarah with smiling eyes : “really!”

And she handed me him and I got to hold my healthy baby something I didn’t get with River.

And this photo says it all. Looking up at Sarah in aw and shock that he was able to be with me. I was so relieved.

Still get chills from it ❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Ciz85muu3kp/